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Thursday, January 2, 2014

My big brother

This picture was taken before my wedding ceremony.  Dave played and sang for us, "The Other Side of Me."  The song is definitely made for a husband and wife, but there are parts that I know apply to how I feel right now, as well as the rest of my family:
"I have know the emptiness
of feeling out of touch
And living life without you here
would be living half as much
Cause I've a need that only you can fill."
My brother was, hands-down, the funniest person ever.  Everything was fun if Dave was there.  He was always telling a joke, or a funny work story.  He loved to make fun of his sisters, and we loved being the subject of his joking around! 
There will be a constant hole in our family. 
There will always be a "what could have been..." feeling in my heart.
I know that my brother is in heaven.  He believed that Jesus died for him.  There is no doubt in my mind about that.  Our family reunion will be in heaven.  But it still hurts so much.
There are many times that this still feels unreal to me.  I see a picture of Dave and think, there's no way he's not really here.  It's just so hard to fathom that he's really gone, and gone forever.  No more tomorrows here on earth. 
So now we pick up the pieces and we try to carry on.
And we continue to believe that God is good, even when life is so unbearably hard.

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